Is God in the stillness?

Have you ever gone through a period when you do not feel God is present with you?  Even when you have felt He was present before?  Have you ever struggled with church attendance/participation because it feels like going through the motions with nothing behind it?  Do you ever feel like there is more?  More than what we learn at church?  What is the point?  I understand this spiritual thing.  I've finally decided, at least for now, just to be with it.  Stop struggling with it and just see where it goes.  Reading that book by Barbara Brown Taylor and others have helped some.  My papaw helped too.  His favorite verse is (because the verse still is) "Be still and know that I am God."  It's in Psalm, but I don't remember where.  I've wondered for a while, of all the verses he could pick, why did Papaw pick that one?  There has to be something to it.  God has to be in the stillness.  I don't have to see Him there or feel Him there or sense Him there for Him to be there.  So, I'm focusing on that for now.  I think we do each other (we as Christians) a HUGE disservice by hiding these dry spells (or whatever you want to call them).  Life is not all mountain tops.  Spiritual life is not all mountain tops.  If it were, then we would have to redefine it as level ground.  Besides that, mountain tops are cold and pointy.  I also think that we (read Christy) get caught up in wanting what we do not have.  Materially, physically, spiritually.  What if my lessons for now are in the stillness, the dry period?  The children of Israel wandered around in the desert (did I spell that right, if not they are in the sweets) for 40 years.  I don't think that is only literal.  Reading it now, we see God was with them the entire time.  Watching, teaching.  But, I have to wonder if it felt that way to them.  What if the Christian life isn't to be something spectacular?  Just a measured way of living day to day?  I don't know the answers.  I have more questions every day.  I doubt.  Big time!  I struggle with unbelief.  Big time!  But I haven't given up yet.  God has to still be there.  If not, why even bother?