I'm OK with that.

So, I'm thinking today.  What else is new?  I think a lot.  Maybe too much.  I can take an idea, value, situation and pick it apart until there is nothing left.  THEN, I will think about why there is nothing left! So, I'm thinking today . . . What if all this thinking is how I grow?  What if this is partly how I work out my faith?  My values?  My beliefs?  What if it isn't just something I do to pass time?  What if it is really important?  What if this is where the rubber meets the road, so to speak?  Would I grow without this?  Would it be as difficult and frustrating?  Would I love it as much?  What if I accept my questioning, my thinking, my picking apart as a part of who I am?  How I interact with life?  I'm OK with that.  Finally, I'm OK with that.  Finally I don't have to wonder if I'm somehow broken or faulty.  This is me.  I'm introspective.  I'm willing to ask the difficult questions.  I'm willing to wrestle with them until I have no energy left.  THEN, I'm willing to rest and start again.  Answers to my questions are not always forthcoming.  I don't always work out these thoughts.  BUT, I'm discovering more about myself in the process.  I'm growing.  I'm OK with that.